"You weren't the only one practicing to walk; I was too now that I think about it. One day when I can walk further, I'll go see you."
this is the first picture we took together. this is also the same day i realized how badly i wanted you in my life. ive sold thousands of dollars worth of my possessions and things ive had since i was a kid so i could see you when i lost my job. ive told you things ive never told anyone. ive never felt so connected or cared about or loved someone so much in my life. when we first had sex and had our first real kiss i was so overjoyed. you made me promise not to tell anyone but i told my 2 best friends instantly and they said theyve never seen me so happy in the time period theyve known me. when i realized i loved you it was when you were in florida. i had told you i loved you previously but i didnt realize it till then. all the times you would hold me while i was crying. all the times youve made my anxiety go away. just everything you did for me in those 2 months of knowing you made me so happy. when you told me you loved me back. i felt speechless and could feel my heart skip a beat. it was honestly the happiest moment of my life. i felt like i could do anything if i had made you fall in love with me. now for the past two weeks everything we had suddenly went down to drain and our personal lives outside of our love became horrible. i want to do everything i can for you and myself and i want to try my hardest to make our lives great and prosperous together. i try my hardest to fix my faults even though it doesnt seem like it. its just so hard for me to suddenly change everything about myself so fast because i have never actually cared about changing myself for someone. i love you so much and now youre gone though. ill never let this picture or any other ones i have of us go and ill never lose the memory of everything we had.